One day at a time

So our little guy’s case is back up in the air, the father to the five older siblings changed his mind and is only going to take his biological children.  The case workers are trying hard to get the kids out of foster care quickly, they are looking for other family members that will take him and the two other siblings.  So he may be with us longer than we planned, meanwhile he is getting more comfortable and we are growing more attached. He is very clingy to me and follows my every step saying “mama”, as he reports what’s happening around the house.  He also loves Monty and does the happy dance when he gets home from work.  A worker shared with me that he ran to our front door after dropping him off from an appointment, she said he could not get back home quick enough.  It makes me feel good that he feels comfortable, safe and happy here.

Finding a balance is challenging.  I want to meet all his emotional needs and love his past away.  I also want to set him up for success in his next placement (weather it’s foster or family) there will likely me more children than our home, and his future caregiver probably will not have the time or attachment parenting ideas that I do.  I don’t want him to have another scary adjustment period.  How sad for him being so little but already having to learn how hard life can be. 

He has been to the doctor a couple times and is having some pretty serious pulmonary issues, and needs to see a specialist asap.  Meanwhile now he will need to be treated with a nebulizer every 4 hours even through the night.  Ugh… I just moved back into my bed and getting a full night sleep.  Hopefully we can get him the help he needs and he will heal quickly.

Still sleepy and feeling a little under the weather (lupie), but all is well.  I am glad he is here and we will continue to take it one day at a time.